Last year, I missed my CNY celebration as I didn’t came back and I celebrated it at Sandakan, Sabah. Back then I am quite enjoying coz I met and made new friends and have the opportunity to visit places in Sandakan. Somehow, I actually very missed the celebration back at home. Which is in Teluk Intan, my hometown.
This year, I manage to come back and celebrate my CNY and I am very happy to be around my family and relatives. During the whole moment of CNY, they are the one who always by my side and spending time with me. Its still a very enjoying break for me though there are not much Angpaos. But I am happy to be home. One thing I was looking forward via this CNY break is trying to catch up with all my buddies. And maybe have a good time together since I missed hanging out with them last year. But facts have proved me wrong. And it makes me feel coming back this year was a huge mistake. Its like, I’ve been totally forgotten. Or maybe its my mistake as I didn’t make the first move to actually approach them and say “hey, lets hang out and have a good time”. Well, it’s a little bit sore in the heart when u realize your absent is actually giving no impact or even a little curiosity to the people u used to hang out with. Looking at them having fun and full of joy and laughter via pictures and in other forms somehow forms a feel of sorrows in the heart. But in the other hand happy for them to be able to get together and enjoy themselves to the fullest. Well, myself was here alone thinking, “where am i? why am I not with them? Is it coz I am being introversive therefore I don’t get invited?” all these little little thoughts just ran through my mind. And now, the CNY celebration is over, and most of them already back to where they belong. Am I still gonna grief bout it? Well, just keep finger crossed that it will be a better year next year. Ending up, this year CNY I hardly or should I say I never went to any of my friends house to pay them a visit and wishing them happy Chinese new year. Again, I think my CNY celebration this year was the worst one I ever had so far.
I thought coming back this year will be a blast. A long chat plus hang out and turns out I only can describe my CNY with only a word, LONELY. So, this short break actually gave me a lot of time thinking bout the good old days I once had when we were still little kids riding on bicycles cycling from house to house to collect red packets. As we grew older, we ride our bike and years later we drove our car. Until now, all that suddenly vanished from me. I wouldn’t say it’s a disaster for me, coz its actually up to them whether to have u around or not. And if they are more comfortable without u around, then we might as well back ourselves out, and makes people’s life better. That’s what I am thinking. Last but not least.. just want to wish all the people out there especially to my friends … Happy Chinese New Year and Gong XI Fa Cai!!!! Hope this year of tiger roars more fortunes and luck to all of u.. especially to us the bunnies… peace!!!
