What 'WORK' means to you?

It has been a while since my last blog about my graduation day. And today here I am bullshit-ing again. Anyway, I had a lot of thoughts nowadays and I decided to put it in words and wanna share my thoughts with you people out there. 

Well, I never mentioned before on my very first job after completing my practical training in the Ministry of Tourism Malaysia Perak. Well, let me just re-cap a bit. I got a job offer from Tourism Malaysia Perak as a Tourism Officer on a year contract and I officially started to work there on the 1^st September 2010. I am using my STPM qualification to apply for the job as the maximum requirement is up till diploma level. (I was wondering aren’t STPM and Diploma the same?). Anyway, it seems I can’t use my degree qualification as I will be disqualified because I am over qualified. (you guys know what it means) . hahaha… anyway, that’s not the whole point, the point is I am grateful enough to get a job and I don’t have to be a NEET after graduation and stuff. My life sounded good to you isn’t it? Well, keep reading~~

I always thought that being in a working world will be almost the same as the studying world. As long you’re hardworking, listen and obey to whatever instructions u got and finished up your tasks then your ass should be safe. But the world had proved me wrong. It will never be the same. And in working life, you can’t afford to screwed up even one tiny little thing. This is how awful and cruel the working life is. At least mine is. (How pathetic huh). So, what actually I had experienced during my working life?? Well, let’s just say it’s not as wonderful as I was expected.

Everyone has their own thoughts about being in the working life. As for me, most important thing that I am looking for in a job is doing what I like despite how much the salary is. But of course, high salary job will be very tempting though. So, it actually doesn’t really matter what we’re doing as long we’re happy and comfortable when we’re working. But, how many of us will be that lucky to find a job that we really enjoyed and pays well? And I also understand that a lot of employees in the world are doing something that they do not like but they have to for the sake of earning a living.

My philosophy of working life is: It’s important for us to feel that “I WANT to go to work” instead of “I NEED to go to work”. These two sentences might sound the same but the meaning beyond these sentences brings two different major feeling. And right now, I am actually feeling “I NEED to go to work” situation where it’s not a good thing. Once an employee it’s in this situation means he/she no longer suitable to stay any longer in the organization. But of course there are some reasons that they might stay. (what’s yours then?)

For me, the working environment plays an important role to ensure the happiness and satisfaction of an employee. Feeling of being accepted, respected and also appreciated are very important in one self. It’s also a fact that, no matter we are the superior or the subordinate still it’s important to respect each other and creating harmony in a working place. Supports and encouragement between other subordinates is the best thing an employee can have in order to survive and feel safe. But unfortunately, not everyone are lucky enough. So, when that happens everything has to depend on own self and struggling through it.

Maybe some of you realized that what I have discussed here it’s a little general. but it certainly implies my current situation. I hereby conclude that, I am who I am and I will keep on searching for a job that I really comfortable with and blend in the place where I work in future. And who knows? I might end up opening a business of my own. Thank you and regards to all of you out there. Good Luck to everybody!

GRADUATION~~

Yeah!!! Graduation!! I am now officially a graduate from Universiti Malaysia Sabah (UMS). The graduation date was a total catch too which was on the 10^th October 2010 (10/10/10). I have been waiting for this day since I first stepped my foot in UMS. Without noticing, my three years of studies in Sabah has officially come to an end. The moment I received my scroll and that’s it, my status as an undergraduate of UMS no longer exists. My return to Sabah for my convocation happened just so fast. And I still can believe that the day had actually arrived. It still feels like yesterday when I first reached sabah, the land beyond the wind to pursue my degree. Anyway, it’s really felt great and enjoyable during my trip back to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah for my graduation.

          Putting on the robe and wearing the squared graduation cap indeed gave me a great feeling. It reminds me of my hard works and sleepless nights during my studies in UMS. Most importantly the ups and down during my days in UMS flashes back and it actually saddened me. It might sound a bit embarrassing but I am brave enough to admit that I do shed tears when I finally got up the stage and receive the scroll. I also can feel how proud my family was as they were in the hall looking at me and seen from afar, their little boy walking up the stage to receive his scroll. And I knew… this moment were also the moment they were always waiting for. Thanks mum and dad and without u guys, I won’t be able to stand on the stage.

          Felt so happy and proud for my other course mates, school mates and friends who also graduated from UMS. Photo sessions soon begin right after the ceremony ends. Everyone were congratulating each other and the environment was just so harmonist. Meeting back old friends indeed were very happy. Graduation maybe is the last chance for some of us to meet up. And we will only see each other again when we see each other again (sounded confuse of this sentence?). hahaha… well… again.. I would like to wish all UMS students who graduates in the year 2010 has a bright future ahead and hopefully we will all reunite again in years to come. And I specially wish all the (HP08 Tourism Management) course mates all the best and I will always miss u all.. HP08 forever. Thanks.

Thank You PKPLN!!!

Dengan ini, Eddie Quah dengan rendah dirinya mengucapkan selamat tinggal kepada PKPLN. Ampun maaf dipinta sekiranya sepanjang masa eddie di sini pernah melakukan kesalahan dan kesilapan. Seandainya ada tersilap kata, terkasar bahasa, tersinggung perbuatannya, silalah maafkan eddie. Eddie tak sempat nak minta maaf semasa Hari Raya nanti.

Thanks a lot for guiding eddie throughout my intern over there in KPL perak… surely enjoyed my days there and very very happy to get to knows fellow colleagues over there..  I got to experienced what I had never try before. Give me opportunity to learn from everyone of u.

Eddie sincerely thank all of u in Pejabat Kementerian Pelancongan Malaysia Negeri Perak. Lets start from the top… En.Syahruddin, En.Shamsul, En.Nazri, Pn.Noor Liza, Pn.Zuraida, Pn.Jamilah, Pn.Sharifah, Pn.Suraya, Cik Vimala, En.Syed Isa, En.Azlimi, Pn.Wan Hanie Liza, En.Ahmad Ridzuan, En.Ahmad Zaini, Cik Nurul Hidayu, Cik Nor Ain, En.Aiman, En.Farid and lastly Kak Cleaner… thank you very very much….

My last day 30th July 2010, was a blast… not because we are having a farewell party .. but I was being thrown by eggs from colleagues… it seems its their form of celebration for the clearance of somebody… so, I indeed had to went through all of this and the last day it’s the day I was covered with raw eggs and flour… its indeed gross but its just another memory for me to bring together with me, not forgetting thank you for the farewell gift… it’s a wonderful pen and I will use it for my future purposes…last but not least i would love to take this opportunity to wish u all a Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri... ampun maaf dipinta.. dan berjumpa lagi.... insyaallah~~ 
-eddie 2010- 

Wonderful Short Trip

25^th July 2010. A wonderful Sunday… I had a wonderful trip with my KPL colleagues. Though its for job purpose but for some reason, I enjoyed it very much. Thanks to Pn.Zuraida for this wonderful opportunity… and also thanks to Pn.Jamilah as she allowed me to go. After all, its my last week of practical in the ministry of tourism…

                I still remember, that day I was from my hometown, Teluk Intan heading back to Ipoh in the morning .. coz I had to reach Taiping on that day. So, after packing my stuff at my rent house, I started my journey together with my colleague, Ain (another practical student from UUM) to Kuala Kangsar. We were supposed to meet our colleague, Aiman (another practical student from UITM Penang) in Kuala Kangsar and from there we went to Taiping together. Haha…

                So, we reached Kuala Kangsar and we had our lunch nearby the river bank. The place there was so peaceful and nice scenery. Though the food was just ok, but still satisfying.. then after lunch, we stopped by and had a bowl of cendol. Somehow I still think the cendol I once had in Sitiawan is better,, wakakakaka.. I had a chance to have a glimpse of the well known Ubudiah Mosque in kuala kangsar and the royal palace of perak… those buildings was so beautiful and I was stuned by their uniqueness… (I wish I could just go there again and look clearer) … we were just by pass the royal town coz we aint have more time to spent there. So, Aiman came and met us, and I just put my car in his house and we started our journey to Taiping using Aiman’s car. Hehe (save duit petrol)..

i can shoot water out from my mouth.. :)

                Taiping, the land of peace… is another wonderful town that I haven’t been for almost 10 years since my last visit there. I will surely go there again and have a good look of the town…  well, the focus is regarding the lodge we were staying. It’s the Kamalodge hotel and café… omg… I will never forget my stay over there as the place was superbly beautiful with fresh air and a very cute swimming pool.. the pool was located in front of the lodges and though the overall area was not large… but it is enough to let tourists feel relax and enjoy their stay. Nice rooms, with nice food and facilities. One word explained it all… GORGEOUS…

my bed

our house

                I was sharing the room with Aiman… and we had our swim in the evening.. the pool was not deep and it is safe to just dip ourselves in the water. ( cant even swim coz its too shallow)… so, after a short water playing activity session, we got rest and waited dinner time. The dinner was another big surprises… well… it was a barbeque dinner and there it was, my favourite grilled lamb… that night, the dinner was superb.

                The highlight of the day was our trip to Taiping Zoo night Safari. Right after dinner, we (myself, Aiman & Ain) went to the night safari. We enjoyed ourselves there very much. Looking at the wild life during night time and we took the safari train ride to go around the safari while the driver explained the animals to us. There were only 3 of us taking the ride as there was not much tourist that night. Maybe due to the rainy night and though it’s raining drizzling, we enjoyed ourselves very much. After the short visit in the zoo, our night ended in a mamak stall in Taiping. Had our supper and head back to the lodge. Believe it or not, Aiman and I did something outrageous, we jumped into the pool though its already 1 am in the morning… OMG it was so F*#king freezing in water.. but one thing for sure… it was FUN!! Hahaha..

                The next morning, we did dropped by Majlis Perbandaran Taiping and have a brief look on the Act Tourism Course… back to Kuala Kangsar  and claim back my car… and drove back to Ipoh… and there I was… I was back again to office… enjoying my very last week of my practical training in KPL…. Hahaha….

Rintihan Hati

Siapakah diriku sebenarnya? Aku , Eddie Quah cumalah seorang insan biasa yang lemah. Cukupku sedari yang kita sebagai manusia tidak akan terlepas dari mengharungi suka dan duka dalam kehidupan.

Aku yang dikenali dengan sikapku yang periang pun kadang kala terasa pilu di hati. Bak kata pepatah, bumi mana yang tidak ditimpa hujan. Namun pun begitu, aku tidak akan membenarkan diriku bersedih dengan terlalu lama. Kehidupan ini ada juga kegembiraan dimana mana sahaja. Adalah teramat bodoh dan membazir sekali sekiranya kehidupan ini disia siakan dengan kesedihan.

Apakah yang ku perlukan sebenarnya? Sudah menjadi lumrah kehidupan dimana manusia ini sememangnya tamak. Aku pun tidak lari daripadanya. Aku mengaku yang ku juga tamak orangnya. Kalau boleh ingin ku tamak segala-galanya dalam kehidupan ini. Inginkan segalanya untuk diriku ini. Tapi, sering kali aku mengingati diriku… gembirakah aku sekiranya aku memiliki segala-galanya??

Diriku eddie quah, mahukan bukan dari segi wang ringgit. Bukan dari segi harta dan kekayaan. Aku cukup gembira dengan diri ku yang hidup dalam keserdehanaan ini. Ku pun berharap yang pada suatu hari nanti, akan ku menjadi kaya… dengan rezeki yang ku peroleh dengan tangan ku sendiri, dengan cara halal. Tetapi kini… pada umurku yang menjangkau 23 tahun, ku masih mempunyai jalan yang amat jauh untuk diteroka. Akanku merealisasikan impianku dengan secepat mungkin dan dengan perancangan yang bernas.

Kini aku, hidup dalam kekurangan. Aku semiskin miskinnya umpama orang yang telah jatuh papa kedana. Bukan dari segi kewangan, bukan dari segi jumlah harta. Tapi ku miskin dan aku dahagakan keyakinan diri serta sokongan. Cukup kabur pandangan mataku terhadap masa hadapanku, meraba dalam kekaburan mencari laluan ku ke masa hadapan yang cerah. Memerlukan panduan yang amat sangat. Tapi… ku percaya yang pada suatu hari nanti… penglihatanku kini akan menjadi beransur baik dan dapatku melihat jalan jalan yang ku akan jalani dengan penuh semangat dan menuju ke kejayaan mutlak. Tapi kini, walaupun dalam kekaburan, ku mempunyai sokongan padu dari ahli keluarga tersayang.

Ayahanda dan bondaku pernah sekali bersua denganku.. “anakku, buatlah apa sahaja asalkan ia dapat diterima oleh hati nuranimu, kami tidak mengharapkan apa apa kekayaan darimu tapi cukuplah sekiranya kamu hidup selamat dan bergembira” … kata kata semangat yang ku terima dari kedua orang tuaku cukup untuk dijadikan bekalan dalam kehidupanku untuk selama lamanya... walaupun sekarang aku dah besar panjang, aku merasa ku masih anak bongsu mereka yang kecil dan manja. Dari bangku sekolah lagi, aku cuma memegang satu ayat ayahku dijadikan pegangan iaitu.. “belajar biarlah bersungguh-sungguh, dan asalkan telah buat yang terbaik, redhalah dengan segala keputusan yang diperoleh dan yang paling penting, jangan sesekali memaksa diri”.

Aku adalah siapa diriku. Eddie tak perlukan orang yang tidak mempercayaiku, tidak menyokongku. Aku mempunyai visi dan hala tujuku sendiri. Aku tak menyalahkan mana mana pihak atas pandangan mereka sendiri. Cuma berharap diriku ini mendapatkan penghormatan yang ku berhak miliki.

Akhir kata, rintihan hati ini bukannya apa, cume satu luahan dalaman yang ku pendam pada diri sendiri setelah sekian lama. Inginku luahkan dan berkongsi bersama di laman blogku ini. Sekian salam sejahtera dan salam satu Malaysia.  

Life in IPOH ???

                    Hey everyone, its time for a brand new post again. Since the last post about UMS farewell, here I am again crapping in my humble blog. For those who had read my blog previously, I thank you all for continuing to test your patience by reading my craps and also for the 1st timer, I welcomed u all and I hope you all will enjoy reading my blog as well.

                    Well, its been a while since I left Sabah and started my practical training here in ‘Pejabat Kementerian Pelancongan Malaysia Negeri Perak Darul Ridzuan’ ( fuh, such a long long name). so, I have to complete the 12 weeks of practical training before I could officially ending all my courses in UMS and finally graduates. So, here I am having my internship in the ministry of tourism Malaysia Perak. Its been almost 5 weeks I’m here doing my intern in Ipoh. So, I’m not going to tell what I’m doing here in the office as it’s boring and lame. Well, there were some interesting story as well but let me just skip those parts.

                    What I’m keener to crap here is my life here in Ipoh. Basically, one word enough to describe it and it’s none other than the word ‘LONELY’. Hahahaha, I just couldn’t avoid from loneliness am i? haha. Being in Ipoh all alone is somehow a challenge for me. Not that I never been alone before but its just so not cool to be alone actually. When I was doing my internship during my 2nd year of studies in ‘Teluk Batik Resort’, Lumut, I cant felt the loneliness although I’m alone too that moment. Maybe its because of the long tiring working hour and I don’t even have time to feel lonely. Well, its just felt so different over here in Ipoh. I work only during weekdays, from 0800 to 1700 everyday and that’s it. After work, I’ll go back to my rent house and faces the ‘4 sided walls’ (Cantonese). Watching dramas or playing games until dinner time… pheww it’s just so boring.

                    Dinner time is the worst thing. I’m eating all by myself and it is so frustrating sometimes when I don’t know what to eat. Well, around my house area there are a lot of food to eat and its undeniable that they kind of serve quite good food. As my lady house owner always says “u can eat different food everyday for 2 months” (I guess she was just exaggerating as there are indeed a lot of places that sells many kind of foods but there are also places that serve the same kind of food) hahaha.. so, sometimes I just rather buy back my dinner after work and eat at home. After all, it is no different between eating outside or at home as I am just eating alone. (JIAK KA KI)

                    The real deal is during weekend.. Weekend is really a time where the ultimate loneliness can be feel. Sometimes I just wish could wake up in the evening but I couldn’t. Maybe its because I already get used to wake up 6 in the morning. The latest can sleep is until 8morning only. Waking up so early in the morning again brings stress to me as I need to figure out what am I going to eat for my breakfast and also lunch. Therefore I will skip my breakfast and take my lunch instead.

                    When its weekend and I cant stay home and grew mushroom on my head am i??? so, I will go out to places in Ipoh such as the ‘Ipoh Parade’, ‘Jaya Jusco’, ‘Tesco’, ‘Giant’, ‘Yik Fong Complex’, and some other places. My time its filled but somehow it still felt not so good. All because I am all alone. I did watch movie alone here in Ipoh (I always watch movie alone back in KK,Sabah), buying groceries need in Giant, windows shopping in Jusco and driving here and there in Ipoh,, all by myself ONLY..haha.. this is why my life here is so boring.

                    Many of u out there will start thinking, “why cant u just call your friends in Ipoh or maybe your colleagues and hang out together?” well, folks out there, no that I don’t wish to, but I understand that they too have their own plans.. so, i rather not bothering anyone. Hehe 

Alright, I guess its long enough and u guys out there started to feel annoyed by my craps..hahaha.. anyway, I have 7 weeks more to go and hopefully things can start to change to a better one. I’ll talk about my office perhaps in the next post… or maybe I wont..hahaha so, see ya …   (eddie sign out)

Good Bye, UMS...

      Oh my, times flies real fast and just a blink of eye everything seems moving in a fast pace. Its been three years… 3 years in UMS and my status as an undergraduate student of school of business and economics has come to an end,. Its feels just like yesterday when I 1st step my foot in the town of Kota Kinabalu , Sabah… but now, it’s the time to leave… somehow.. I will appreciate and remember the days I once had in this wonderful place.

      Its my last day here in KK and I am going back on 5th May 2010… the 1855 pm flight is somewhere there waiting for me… at some point I really don’t feels like leaving… unlike other sem breaks, I actually cant wait to go back and I am very excited each time I got to go back to home… somehow this time is different… i understand that this time I am going back, I will not come back here again for studies and meeting my fellow friends… though I am coming back for my graduation, but it just doesn’t feels okay. Everything suddenly has been very important and gained my interest…my school, my uni, my life here as a student of UMS… not forgetting also my friends and people is knew here.

      Suddenly there is this emotion came all over me, felt like crying… we had a wonderful time together for the last time before we get apart from each other and that is awesome.. haha. And now, waiting the moment to leave this wonderful place.. is somehow a very unbearable feeling… I hate to go, but there is nothing I could do. I understand very well that this is just a chapter we have to go thru, and by ending this chapter, there will be another chapter of our life will begin.. therefore, no regretz.. and just cherish the moment we once have together….

      One thing for sure… no more textbooks, journals, and assignments for me and that is actually a very good thing.. haha, I have so over with studies now and I hope the working environment is going to be a fruitful experience for me. Study has been the pain in my ass throughout my uni life, but I am grateful that I finally get over it…

      I close my eyes… the moment I surrender myself to the faith.. I know myself will going to miss this place… the wonderful places, nice people, delicious food and stuffs. So, lastly, at this very second, I would like to express my gratitude… to all my friends, lectures, who direct and indirectly making me a better person in life. And not forgetting, I wanna apologize for whatever I had done. My action that might be hurt others, my speech that sounds ridiculous, and any other thing that might offended u once upon a time, here I truly sorry and I wish everyone ‘may u all be well and happy’…

      Eddie sign out…

It's just too fast.. :)

All these are happening too fast!!! It’s felt like just yesterday the 1st time I ever step my foot in UMS… calling myself junior of the hp08 tourism management student of the school of business and economics. Well, out of sudden now its my last year last semester in this university. 3 years…. 3 awesome years just over… just like that.. wow..

Well, there are surely a lot of memories throughout the 3 years studying in UMS. And surely everything came to an end.. no more lectures, tutorials, classes, assignments and exams!! Hell ya, we are leaving the uni already without us noticing that. How scary was that huh?? Surely miss this place… the university, the town and SABAH especially.. I will surely return again to the beautiful land beyond the wind.. someday….

What’s really came in my mind, and what I care most is the friendship I built here throughout my studies here. I truly treasured all my friends here… well, there is surely a starting and ending to all this.. but I belief, we all can keep in touch as we’re living in the world of technologies.

Hopefully after graduation, every one of us is heading to our own path and led a good life ahead. Be somebody…. Last but not least… may all of them be well and happy.. !!!

Pinky nite~~

       Its one hell of a night i had with my fellow friends Sam and Kish... just finish had our seafood at sri mutiara kampung air... then we decided to have a walk near by the area where all the ahquas are hanging around... looking at them at a long distance its like quite ok and maybe prettier than the real chicks... but, their voices its really giving us a goosebump...we just passed by the ahquas and they were like "ah chai, mari ham lin, kongkek..." then as we walk by they will start chasing after us and asked us not to run.. haha... its so scary.. maybe its because i knew they were actually dudes... but dressing up looking like a chick doesnt make them a chick... that is why its felt abit weird when they approached us and offer their services... hahaha.. so, this is not the climax of the nite, we finally decide to get in the car and start roaming around.. and we wanted to give those ahquas a gift and recorded it ... so, we drove near a group of ahquas and we chat with them for awhile... i couldnt look them into the eyes as it is just so scary... and i quickly gave them the gift and we just cabut... anyway, we all laughed our heart out after the incident... and its surely a nite to remember... my 1st time with ahqua... but i am glad my 1st time is just to talk with them... nothing more,...

Chinese New Year Celebration 2010????

     Last year, I missed my CNY celebration as I didn’t came back and I celebrated it at Sandakan, Sabah. Back then I am quite enjoying coz I met and made new friends and have the opportunity to visit places in Sandakan. Somehow, I actually very missed the celebration back at home. Which is in Teluk Intan, my hometown.
     This year, I manage to come back and celebrate my CNY and I am very happy to be around my family and relatives. During the whole moment of CNY, they are the one who always by my side and spending time with me. Its still a very enjoying break for me though there are not much Angpaos. But I am happy to be home. One thing I was looking forward via this CNY break is trying to catch up with all my buddies. And maybe have a good time together since I missed hanging out with them last year. But facts have proved me wrong. And it makes me feel coming back this year was a huge mistake. Its like, I’ve been totally forgotten. Or maybe its my mistake as I didn’t make the first move to actually approach them and say “hey, lets hang out and have a good time”. Well, it’s a little bit sore in the heart when u realize your absent is actually giving no impact or even a little curiosity to the people u used to hang out with. Looking at them having fun and full of joy and laughter via pictures and in other forms somehow forms a feel of sorrows in the heart. But in the other hand happy for them to be able to get together and enjoy themselves to the fullest. Well, myself was here alone thinking, “where am i? why am I not with them? Is it coz I am being introversive therefore I don’t get invited?” all these little little thoughts just ran through my mind. And now, the CNY celebration is over, and most of them already back to where they belong. Am I still gonna grief bout it? Well, just keep finger crossed that it will be a better year next year. Ending up, this year CNY I hardly or should I say I never went to any of my friends house to pay them a visit and wishing them happy Chinese new year. Again, I think my CNY celebration this year was the worst one I ever had so far.
     I thought coming back this year will be a blast. A long chat plus hang out and turns out I only can describe my CNY with only a word, LONELY. So, this short break actually gave me a lot of time thinking bout the good old days I once had when we were still little kids riding on bicycles cycling from house to house to collect red packets. As we grew older, we ride our bike and years later we drove our car. Until now, all that suddenly vanished from me. I wouldn’t say it’s a disaster for me, coz its actually up to them whether to have u around or not. And if they are more comfortable without u around, then we might as well back ourselves out, and makes people’s life better. That’s what I am thinking. Last but not least.. just want to wish all the people out there especially to my friends … Happy Chinese New Year and Gong XI Fa Cai!!!! Hope this year of tiger roars more fortunes and luck to all of u.. especially to us the bunnies… peace!!!

Last Sem......... Happy???

   Well, school already started for a few weeks now.. and if ur asking me whether am I enjoying it so far?? Its not.. I cant accept the fact that being in a final semester I still bogged down with tons of assignments and stuffs.. maybe its my own problem being so procrastinating. Or is it because I am going back for my CNY holiday this coming February? The point is, I am just too lazy to move my ass for all these academics bullshitz.. no one to blame but myself.. cant blame the lecturers for being not understanding by giving so many assignments… cant blame them for wanting a perfect presentation and not crap presentations.. for me, there is this class.. the only class that I would not mind attending it even if the class is for 5 hours… which is the Wednesday class… somehow I personally think students will actually enjoy the class when they are not being pressured too hard in a class..



Other than sch gving me a heartache.. leading a life here in sabah for this sem seems more tough than ever.. maybe coz of the ppl, and also the environment… everything not the same anymore compare to previous sems… its just too scary..


Just hope this semester will get better.. but for now.. I just wish I can go back for cny celebration and don’t gv a damn bout other stuff 1st.. homie sweet homie… here I come…